SURREAL

Have you ever looked up the defination to the word Surreal ?? : Having the disorienting, hallucinatory quality of a dream : unreal..... Always posting from my feelings i literally cannot comprehend what my mom must me feeling every second of every day !! I know it has been forever since i posted last and i apolgize.
Whenever i see my mom or talk to her on the phone i say " how are you?" all the while kowing the underlying answer to that question. The symptoms and side effect change daily but the true answer is always the same even if she wont say it. My mom is severly anemic and even after sitting for hours for a blood transfusion she can get a dish out of the cupboard and be past exhaustion. She is so nausiated every day that she cant eat or drink even when craving food or something to drink it all makes her sick, so of course she is losing alot of weight and that only enforces her lack of energy to function. However even worse than that is the emotional exhaustion and frustration. It breaks my heart to see her try so hard to stay postitve because she is SO sick of being SO sick. Even seeing her and knowing what her body is doing and fighting i dont think ANYONE truly realizes how exhausting it could be to just get dressed everyday. She will come to work and after an hour have to leave in tears because she just cant do it. I know she is just craving some of her normal life or routine back. Being able to scrub the bathtub would be heaven to her right now. She has test in a few days to see if all of the misery and chemo is fighting the cancer. Please dont forget about her as every day she is fighting and struggling so please let her know you love her and are thinking about her!